Yet another post on UNCG. September 30, 2008

Lately all of my blog posts have been about my time here in Greensboro. I’m still loving the campus, and the friends I’ve made so far; however…I’m beginning to feel like a failure. Now, I understand that failure is a very harsh word but right now at this moment it’s how I feel.
Last week I had a Biology exam and a Chemistry exam, fun right? I studied really hard for my Bio exam and made 2 points away from a C. Chemistry….well we won’t talk about chemistry. Let’s just say I thought I did really well even though I kind of pushed that test out of my mind because I was freaking about Biology. Needless to say, the 2 grades I have recieved as tests so far really make me mad. Pissed off even. How come I study so hard and still recieve a grade that is much less desired?

Houston came to visit me for a little bit today and I was browsing through other majors. He pretty much told me to stop acting stupid and realize that I wouldn’t want to do anything else besides nursing…I didn’t want to admit he was right.

I talked to my mom a little bit about it after I got my Biology grade back. I’ve done really well on my quizzes and I feel like I understand the material, and I have A’s in all my other classes–but what is the deal with Biology? And now Chemistry? I feel like to truly be able to succeed I’m going to have to cut off all ties with the outside social world for awhile. And, I know this is only the first test but I really need to do freaking amazing on the next tests to be able to stay on the list for nursing school. …I don’t even want to THINK about applying for nursing school right now.

I may be a little hard on myself, but I just want to do well in these classes. I honestly don’t know what else I would major in. I mean, I guess I could try and be famous. That works out in about 1 in a million, right??